Although there are numerous personalities one can talk about, we shall focus on Introverts because it affects me personally. This is not in any way a comparison or choosing the better between two personalities but rather a persuasion to become the best version of yourself.
I scoured the internet for the best definition befitting an introvert and there were many adjectives used in describing it. However, the main difference between an introvert and any other personality is their love for solitude.
People portray their introverted nature differently but the love for solitude stands out.
Introverts love peace and quiet.
Some introverts do not have a problem socializing but, others like myself, find a hard time being in a social gathering for far too long. I often tend to grow exhausted after an hour in a social function — Just being with people and talking for too long saps my energy. Introverts love to reflect and we enjoy being by ourselves most of the time.
Seeing as a number of introverts love solitude on an average level while for some solitude is indelibly ingrained in their life; I would like to use myself as a case study to explain introverts that are inclined to solitude because my personality is of such manner.
The ability to understand myself proved difficult, for I had trouble understanding my personality.
Growing up was different for me. I felt I was living in another universe while everyone was busy ignoring me —There was a gnawing fear growing inside me which had no source. This fear brought about my timidity and anxiousness. I was extremely timid, and I felt my anxiety eat deep into my heart everyday — Just as though it was forming a hole in my heart .
My mind was in constant dialogue with itself. Like a jabber, never keeping quiet — I was a talkative in my head.
I was never alone physically, but I was in utter loneliness mentally. It felt like I was stuck in a big black box in my head, just staring at an empty space. I was all by my lonesome; a quiet and gentle kid.
I actually liked being by myself, but I didn’t know how to make friends or talk to people. It reached a time where my love for solitude took an extreme turn. I became depressed and sad for no reason. Sometimes I cried out of the blue. I was really a sad kid without reason.
I hated crowds, they made me hugely nervous.
Be that as it may I detested feeling this way, I wanted to be better. Consequently, I decided to do things differently.
Hereinafter are some of the things that helped me to form my personality appropriately:
Self savvy
Understanding myself was the obvious trick. With the intention of maturing into a better person, I had to understand myself better. I knew to check the things that triggered my depression and unambiguously steer clear of them. With an eye towards becoming a better introvert, I needed to truly understand my personality — To be self aware.
Gaining random acquaintances
Talking to strangers helped me gain my confidence in a quirky way. I started off on my arduous quest by firstly choosing my target. I would scour for the most welcoming face I could see, I didn't want anyone looking at me with irritation. Then, I usually walk up to the person and start a random conversation. Sometimes it went well, sometimes it didn’t. Either way, I was a winner. I always felt confident whenever I engaged in a conversation with a stranger.
Emotionally open
Talking about how I felt got me really uncomfortable, but I tried my best to be open hearted as it helped in removing all the toxicity from my body. I became more open about my feelings. When I talked about my feelings I felt better and relieved, as if I carried a heavy burden initially.
The mind game
Being always in my head made me feel so depressed and lonely, for that reason I avoided going there all the time. I stopped being in my head habitually. It became less toxic being in my head when I did things in moderation. I worked hard to have a healthy relationship with my wild imagination. I still like being by myself most times and social gatherings wear me out, But I try to always have a positive mindset and it really helps me.
I confidently wear my introverted nature because that is who I am. As far as I am concerned, It is a strength to be an introvert. When you strive to be a better person without trying to change who you are, you will turn out to be immensely fulfilled.
There were other things that helped me in my journey to self realization but the most important of all was my improved relationship with God. It served as a closure for my past and a beginning to my wonderful and positive future. This is my personal Journey, which is still ongoing, and I hope it inspires you to strive to be a better person.
